Big decisions ..

Military:
So here lately i have been thinking about getting my life together & getting a fast career.  So in that i was thinking of going in to a branch of the military. Tomorrow i am going to talk to a man about the Navy. & hopefully set up more appointments with the marines, national guard, & so forth. My family thinks its a terrible idea, but i am trying to look at the bright side: Possibly get my schooling paid for & have a better job when i get out, i will have a stable job, & i will be doing something for others. But on the other side i am scared shitless of Basic training, & being in the middle of fighting, but i have been told that i wont necessarily be in the middle of it.. i am so unsure.
I will miss everybody here so much && i dont know if i can live with out my best friend by my side. :/

College:
Another thing i have been thinking about is what i actually wanna go to school to do.  I was thinking accountant, hair dresser,  nurse, or hell i don't know.

So if any one reads this & has thoughts or advise to give me please feel free (:

Things on my mind;;

Few things i need to let out would be ;
 Mom. I wish you would stay clean for me. i dont understand why you can't be like a normal mom. i do understand that you have issues, but still you should be babying me not the other way around. i havent had a child yet so please stop acting like im your mother. you are mine. i love you! i cant keep doing this tho. i am going to end up dead because of so much stress from you &  your issues. Dennis tryed to message me & say that he didnt know where  you were & asked if i had heard from you. I of course told him no & that he needed to leave me alone with that garbage of trying to worry me.. but of course i am worried! so please mommy call me or FaceBook me when you can. :/